My boyfriend and I constantly fight. but over stupid little things and he punishes me by not talking to me and he tells me he loves me but when I'm sobbing my heart out because he has hurt me, he calls me selfish and that I'm trying to guilt trip him but I can't control my emotions. I just need him to be there. it hurts so much because I would do absolutely anything for him but I am not good enough. he tells me he doesn't want to lose me and in hurting him and I try and fix it but he always takes it out on me. I hate myself so much for hurting him but I don't mean to but I'm so hurt. is it supposed to be limw thus? he makes jokes that hurt me and I can't get upset about them. he swears at me and says it's a joke. I don't know what to do.