coward me

Question

I love someone and she loves maybe even more than I do she is a gem a real keeper but recently her caught our chats together and they now want us to stop talking to each other and I don't want that coz she was the one who supported me when i was miserable when i wanted to die she was the one who supported me , the thing is I want to marry her and have a peaceful life together but they won't allow that coz iam not of same caste I never believed in caste and all but it's has been quite unbearable these day to think they won't let me be with her' the only good thing going on in my life ' just because I was born in a different caste I don't want to let her go i know iam nothing rightnow but give me a chance atleast these days I don't even have the strength left to cheer myself up and say to her everything is going to be fine instead here iam looking for ways so that I don't just kill myself and make her life more miserable

sleepyhead23 · Answer

first tell me you do job or a student?

riyad · Answer

iam a fucking student iam 22 years old cruising through my life like a careless cartoon . I should have figured out by now what I want to do with my life and settle

sleepyhead23 · Answer

hey it's ohkay i am 20 soon going to be 21.... carelessly pursui higher education.... without even a single idea what the fuck i want... it's okay breath!! like some typical advice don't worry everything will get better, you've got this,you are strong....and now the real problem you will think that i am crazy or something go to that girl's house and talk to her parents about your relationship.....and about your career if you want her figure something out soon!

riyad · Answer

I tried to talk to her sister her mother they all behave like yeah we support u but as soon as I leave my partner told me they were like no nothing can't happen u too just forget each other i seriously feel ashamed of my self searching for ways online to cope with this feeling but I don't have any choice left I can't let my family see my cry anymore nor I can bother her coz she is already in a lot of stress

sleepyhead23 · Answer

so have you thought of anything now?

riyad · Answer

yes i have thought about a few things

sleepyhead23 · Answer

ohaky go on!

riyad · Answer

I will try and do whatever and however I can for both of us but if nothing happens I seriously don't have any reasons to live

riyad · Answer

I can't watch her go with someone else I know iam being selfish and may be immature as i have been told by her family many times and my feelings are nothing more than just fluke

sleepyhead23 · Answer

hey idiot your life is precious and nobody has the right to take that away from you and i mean it nobody not even your girlfriend.

riyad · Answer

I seriously don't how do they know more about my feelings,

riyad · Answer

do u have any idea how it feels when as a young kid u go out and someone whom u trust rapes u and u can't tell anyone anything

sleepyhead23 · Answer

those are a bunch of idiotic senior citizens plus her sister....who only think about caste and also want her daughter to be happy with some other rich guy or whatever you can do nothing about it.....and it's not your fault they talk Shit.

sleepyhead23 · Answer

you think I have no idea about it?

riyad · Answer

so u just suck it up coz people might judge u and then u gather up some strength start going out again

riyad · Answer

I seriously don't know whether u have any idea about this or not sorry if I hurt u in some way

sleepyhead23 · Answer

no you don't suck it up...all i am saying don't give a fuck about em! because people talk they talk just keep a low profile now and meet her somewhere outside her house or anywhere and talk about the matter

sleepyhead23 · Answer

no it's not your fault we all have some scars no!😅

sleepyhead23 · Answer

for now talk to her if you can and come to a conclusion what you both should do.

riyad · Answer

but after u start going out again and meet a group of people who starts bullying you and again u can't tell anyone coz at this point in time

riyad · Answer

u feel like no one can help u and tears don't have a point anymore and just when u think that all is over u meet someone who understands u loves u for the way u are and u muster up strength to tell her everything that has happened to u in the past

sleepyhead23 · Answer

i know it's hard....kuch toh log kahenge aur karenge unka kaam hi yhi hae....i have been bullied my whole life not only my fellow classmates but also my teacher 😂 hurts like hell even when I think about it now.....and still sometimes I get bullied by people but i talk back you know now i have somehow developed myself from my old self!

sleepyhead23 · Answer

exactly it feels nice and you feel that ki that person is the one and nobody can understand you like her/him!

riyad · Answer

fearing that she might also stop talking to u but u can't just keep her in dark ,but as soon as u tell her the complete opposite happens and she comes close hugs u and says it's alright rishabh everything is going to be fine if u want u can cry i won't stop u or leave u

sleepyhead23 · Answer

you are lucky to have her in your life you know..... people often leave you when you open up to them about things you have faced in your life but she stayed and loves you.

riyad · Answer

so after a really long time of keeping it all in , u just let it all out with a sense of relaxation that maybe i have found the one and now everyone is just hell bent on taking her away from me I have never hurt anyone and if I did unintentionally hurt someone i always made sure to make the other person know that iam sorry then why seriously why is all of this happening to me

riyad · Answer

I know iam lucky to have her that's why iam saying just when i thought everything is going to be fine , i think meri hee Nazar lagi hai khud ko

sleepyhead23 · Answer

ache logon ke saath humesha bura hota hae(like my marks🙂JK)

sleepyhead23 · Answer

Abe oo nazar Wale sun agar aisa lag rha hae toh dono saath mae khade raho mae mirchi leke aati hun Nazar utarungi ....🙃

riyad · Answer

I just know one thing i won't be able to survive without her

sleepyhead23 · Answer

sun meri baat sab thik hoga Focus on your career first think for a week what you want to do with your career and tell her to wait for a couple of years till you become something.

riyad · Answer

haha le aao mirchi kya pta kuch ho hee jaye

sleepyhead23 · Answer

jis tarha se teri Nazar lagi hae kuch 10-12 mirch se kaam nhi banega puri bori leke aani padegi aaur usko Teri gf ke ghar ke bahar aadhi raat ko jayenge taaki khaans khaans ke unka khel khalaas ho aur tum dono ki setting ho jaye🌚 bol plan mast hae na

riyad · Answer

we don't have a couple of years her parents are hell bent on finding a good tyagi boy for her. ladka tyagi hona chaiye chahe pyar kare na kare chahe khush rkhe ya na rkhe

sleepyhead23 · Answer

matlab uss tyagi ke liye yeh ladki aapni khusiya tyaag de yeh kya baat Hui bhai🤦 yeh senior citizens sab sathiya gaye hae

riyad · Answer

we might have just 1 year Max after that

sleepyhead23 · Answer

somehow you both have to convince the parents...only option yhi hae ya phir bhaag ke Saadi karlo....phir bachon ke baad sab thik ho jayega🙃

riyad · Answer

as i said maybe being in a high caste is a achievement which we the people of lower caste has yet to unlock

sleepyhead23 · Answer

my parents you know vo alag caste ke the my mom was from upper caste toh vo raaton raaat ghar se bhag gaye....yhi koi 24-25 saal ke honge ya phir uss se kaam

sleepyhead23 · Answer

my father was a typist at that time barely made any money 2000 a month i guess

sleepyhead23 · Answer

they faced a lot of problems but with eachothers love and understanding they had a cute little baby like me....bhagwan ki daya se sab thik hae even my maternal grandfather and grandmother are happy with my father

riyad · Answer

bhaag kr toh vo bilkul nhi kregi and even I don't want that coz being a girl is already hard in this society and i seriously don't want ki uske parents bhi ussey hate kare so we both agreed ki sabko manayenge kaise bhi karke

sleepyhead23 · Answer

Mae worst case scenario bata rhi hun....agar Maan Jaye toh bohat jyada acha...aur meko bataiyo kya hua

riyad · Answer

maybe iam the problem coz my life was already going no where but now my uselessness is causing her problems too

riyad · Answer

I seriously don't want to die I don't believe me I want to live with her, enjoy our lives and have a baby girl live a simple life and that's it nothing more than that nothing lesser than that. haha I know dur ki soch hai and it might sound a bit immature too but seriously mujhe itna mil jaye mai kbhi kisi cheez ki shikayat na karu

riyad · Answer

haha sure btaunga

sleepyhead23 · Answer

chup sab thik hoga don't worry......i will pray to god ki bhagwan iski setting karwa do do din tak apne bhai se jhagda nhi karungi🙂

riyad · Answer

thank u soo much stranger thank u so much

sleepyhead23 · Answer

I'd dekh ke Stanger samjha kya friend hae mae(pushpa raaj) ja ab tension na Lee!

riyad · Answer

thank you didn't knew making friends was this easy , may the force be with u

sleepyhead23 · Answer

text me whenever you need to talk someone 🌼💫 may god help you with your career and your love life💕

riyad · Answer

it feels strange to think a stranger can help u this much but ur own community or loved ones can't

sleepyhead23 · Answer

bass kaar pagle....ab mae itni bhi kuch khass nhii🤭😝 but jokes apart you know i could become friends with you because i understand what you are going through and have been through.....yeh ek aspect hae!

riyad · Answer

yes iam online

riyad · Answer

ok

riyad · Answer

iam 22 from Uttar Pradesh

riyad · Answer

yes

riyad · Answer

iam trying

riyad · Answer

hey sleepyhead23 can u plz talk to me if u are available I am feeling a little agitation i am just tired of crying and this feeling of hurt is hollowing me down

sleepyhead23 · Answer

what happened???

riyad · Answer

is there a private slot to talk in this app

riyad · Answer

so that no one else can read these chats

sleepyhead23 · Answer

nope wait you want my email?

riyad · Answer

no nevermind we will talk here only

riyad · Answer

are u preparing for ur exams ?

sleepyhead23 · Answer

ohkay as you wish but phir bhi it's my email id    sleepyhead.123fukyou@gmail.com

sleepyhead23 · Answer

yup kind off 🤣

riyad · Answer

ohh okk okk sorry sorry then u should not waste ur time

sleepyhead23 · Answer

you free at 8:00?

riyad · Answer

yeah sure if i survive till 8 😂

sleepyhead23 · Answer

oye waste kya bc...baat karte hae thodi der mae chalega???

sleepyhead23 · Answer

chutiye + chaman = chaman chutiye 8 baje tak survive karle mere se baat karne ke baad decide kar liyo ohir

riyad · Answer

ok

riyad · Answer

thank for the support by the way

sleepyhead23 · Answer

🥰

sleepyhead23 · Answer

oye Rishabh tu hae kya wha? bata kyaa hua

riyad · Answer

yes iam here

sleepyhead23 · Answer

hann Bata

riyad · Answer

i don't know what actually happened I was feeling a bit low from the beginning of the day i went to my friends thinking that might help

riyad · Answer

but no It didn't

sleepyhead23 · Answer

ohkay you feeling low because of the matters you are going through right now? or there is some other reason?

sleepyhead23 · Answer

Abe kidhar gaya?

riyad · Answer

yhi hu

riyad · Answer

chetna ka msg aaya tha

sleepyhead23 · Answer

han kya bola usne

riyad · Answer

she was a bit stressed

riyad · Answer

bol rhi thee ki kya kr rha hai

riyad · Answer

i actually behaved like an idiot day before yesterday

riyad · Answer

aur uss vajah se uski mum bhi stressed hai aur. vo bhi

sleepyhead23 · Answer

tune kya kiya batana!

riyad · Answer

😅

sleepyhead23 · Answer

don't tell me tune uske ghar pe koi hungama create Kiya?? ya use pregnant toh nai kardiya???

riyad · Answer

ofcourse not i would never do something that can spoil her life completely

sleepyhead23 · Answer

toh janab kya kaand kiye Zara bataynge!

riyad · Answer

i have already created a lot of problems for her

riyad · Answer

i went to her house and talked to her mum but instead of speaking in full confidence i started crying

riyad · Answer

after saying few things coz her mum completely shutted me out saying her father is never going to agree to this

sleepyhead23 · Answer

achaa

sleepyhead23 · Answer

phir bass isiliye?

riyad · Answer

I tried to tell her that I love her daughter so much that I would do anything for her just give me a chance and she said rishabh listen I don't have a problem with u infact I think u are a good kid her sister and brother also thinks so but her father won't allow this to happen because of caste so she said beta love is all about sacrifice and shit we don't always get what we want

riyad · Answer

and the worst thing is i believe her i also want her happiness but I just want ki mere saath ho and she said iam being selfish

sleepyhead23 · Answer

obviously dude you cried infront of them aur kitna proof chahiye hoga ki tu chetna se pyar karta hae.....chetna naam rakha he ladki ka par bilkul bhi chetna nhi hae 😑 tune uske papa se kabhi baat ki hae?

riyad · Answer

coz if things go my way she can loose all her relations but if things go their way the only person she looses is me so i said even if it costs her , her happiness ?

sleepyhead23 · Answer

i get it love is all about sacrifice par bhenchod (sorry for the language) you are giving a completely lame reason damn!! you are ready to sacrifice your child's happiness for the sake of that so called caste 😑

sleepyhead23 · Answer

chetna kya chahti hae pehele bata?

sleepyhead23 · Answer

rishabh?

riyad · Answer

that's how our parents roll baccha krna hota hai uski happiness important nhi hoti

riyad · Answer

chetna wants ki uski family ke agreement se ho sab aur she also wants that we both stay together for the rest of our lives

sleepyhead23 · Answer

dekha jae toh unki galti nhi hae actually vo society ke bare mae jyada sochte hae  kyunki unke mummy papa bhi hae waise hi karte the......abhi Teri ek beti Hui suppose toh tu use support karega and you will not let her go through things Jo tune face ki hae....but at the back of the mind tujhe fikar hogi bohat jyada hogi!

riyad · Answer

iam not ready to give up anything but all these questions are just giving me severe complxions

sleepyhead23 · Answer

then usko apni family ko kaise bhi convince karna padega

riyad · Answer

hnn society yhi toh dikkat hai saari I just feel like it's not worth living in this society

riyad · Answer

sorry I had to go somewhere

sleepyhead23 · Answer

it's ohkay!

riyad · Answer

ofcourse mujhe fikr hogi mai check krunga is the guy actually trying or really good for her if he she wants ki usse thoda time diya jaye then I will give them but fir bhi nhi bnti baat toh no

sleepyhead23 · Answer

yeahh it's what you think because tune previously yeh cheez face ki hae aur you know kaisa lagta hae aur tu caste mae bhi believe nhi karta but her father is completely opposite.

riyad · Answer

why do kids have to sacrifice their happiness

sleepyhead23 · Answer

you know everything happens for good reason! mae scene bata rhi hun tujhe thoda hurt ho sakta hae pare dhyan se sun  suppose ki chetna ne apne family ko choose Kiya and she is ready to lose you(dil pe pathar rakh ke) -this thing also proves that she is a also a good daughter. phir tu kya karega??

riyad · Answer

i exactly know that's how things are going to happen and i can't hate her for that coz i know she it's not her fault at all but whenever I think ki yaar jo jo sapne dekhe itni himmat karke sapne dekhe sab toot jayenge

riyad · Answer

and what if she forgets me , u have to understand  it's hard for me think a certain way from being with no dreams to suddenly so many dreams after that again this heartbreak

sleepyhead23 · Answer

jab aapke sapne tute toh naye sapne dekho agar chetna tujhe chord ke gyi...then thodi der ke liye lagega ki duniya khatam hone wali hae par aissa nahi hae kya pata tujhe koi usse bhi acha mile.....aisa Jo tujhe usse bhi jyada pyar kare ya care kare teri aur lad jye tere liye puri duniya se(thoda filmy ho gaya par yeh sach hae) zindagi mae Jo hum chahte hae vo humesha nhi milta..aur yeh baat sach hae par vo humare ache ke liye hi nhi milta itna yaad rakhna

sleepyhead23 · Answer

i understand recently my bf broke up with me....meri zindagi ka pehela pyar aur mujhe tere jaisa hi feel hua tha..

riyad · Answer

ok

sleepyhead23 · Answer

rishu i get it bohat jyada mushkil hae nearly impossible ab sab chetna ke hatho mae hae Jo vo chahe gi wohi hoga.....aur dil tutta hae toh taqlif hoti hae par dheere dheere sab thik ho jayega...himmat rakh

sleepyhead23 · Answer

aur jab bhi meri zarrorat ho toh text kardiyo ya mail....abhi 10 din ke liye busy hun thoda exam ki wajah se phir bhi reply dungi par jyada frequently nhi de paungi par ek baar exams khatam....phir tu jab bhi text bhej 'oye dhani hae kya' sarkar hum hazir ho jayenge...chahe din ho raat ho dopeher ho.....ya adhi raat ho kyun na ho....tere message ka reply fattt se dungi!! ohkay!!

riyad · Answer

can I ask u something

riyad · Answer

why are u helping me this much ?

sleepyhead23 · Answer

now mummy chilla rhi hae uapr Jana padega exam hae padhna bhi hae 😑 agar fail hui toh farzi degree ka bhi sochna hae😝  Tu sad mat hooya kar Teri naak achi nai lagti phir joker jaisi hojati hae🤡

riyad · Answer

tumhe kaise pta kaisi lagegi meri naak tune konsa mujhe dekha hai aaj tak

sleepyhead23 · Answer

because you are my friend now and you need someone right now..and( a friend in need is a friend indeed) i don't want ki tu survive na kare....dekh tu soch rha tha na kki tu survive nhi karega seee...8:22 you survived congratulations 🦛

sleepyhead23 · Answer

dekha nhi hae par pata hae logon ki naak joker jaisi lagti hae sad ho toh🤣

riyad · Answer

i will survive i have to survive atleast for 1 year

sleepyhead23 · Answer

not atleast for a year for.....so manyyyyy years.......itne ki tu khud na Ginn payee

riyad · Answer

taaki i can make some ammends and say sorry to those who i have hurt

sleepyhead23 · Answer

people who love you never hold grudges you know!

riyad · Answer

and atleast support her till the last moment

sleepyhead23 · Answer

you will i know and you are a very good guy...and selfish selfish na bola kar khudko pyar mae thoda selfish hona bhi zarrori hae

riyad · Answer

worst thing is i can't say anything to anyone now I just have to bear it alone that's the only reason I joined this app so that atleast i can get support for my last attempt to change things this all sounds filmy but it's true

riyad · Answer

i don't know iam a good guy or a foolish guy chl u go and study

sleepyhead23 · Answer

you are a good guy end of discussion......and apne khali dimag mae jyada zor mat de....jaa thodi der ke liye standup comedy dekh le koi dimag fresh ho jata hae😗 jeeveshu ahluwalia ke dekh Indian parents ke upar.... aur bed mae jaa ke akhen band kar ke let ja thodi neend le i am pretty sure thik se soya nhi hota tu.....sleep cycle bigad ne se insaan ka dimag kharab ho jata hae....dhayn rakh apna😑......chal lets meet after 10 days! exam kaise Gaye bataungi pakka! jyada mat sochiyo....chal bye take care.....🌻💕

sleepyhead23 · Answer

goodie goodie night! Sweetie sweetie dreams 💕

riyad · Answer

fun fact my exams are also going on BA psychology from IGNOU

sleepyhead23 · Answer

oh bhenchod mera chronobiology ka hae sleep wake cycle wagera wagera vo chapter skip kaardiya maene😭

riyad · Answer

i took psychology in the hopes of helping people dealing with stress and now look at me 😂

riyad · Answer

hey if u don't mind can I say something ?

sleepyhead23 · Answer

yess bol mae mind nhi karti kuch

riyad · Answer

can we please talk somewhere private like telegram or whatsapp i seriously don't feel comfortable talking here and i swear won't do anything bad or something even closer to that

riyad · Answer

i know u gave me ur email but it just feels iffy

sleepyhead23 · Answer

ohkay telegram pe kar sakte hae par abhi delete Kiya hae 10 din ke baad download hoga

riyad · Answer

cool

sleepyhead23 · Answer

ohkay! chal tusi fikar na karo....sab thik hoga ...pata hae mujhe mera bestfriend online hi Mila tha😂 kya pata hum ache dost ban jaye

riyad · Answer

take care and hope ur exam goes well

sleepyhead23 · Answer

thank you....i hope so too phir mujhe ghar se nikala toh tere ghar pe dera dalungi!

riyad · Answer

u sure u wanna make someone ur friend just for one year

sleepyhead23 · Answer

after being friends with me vo one year 100 year ho jayega trust me!

riyad · Answer

haha let's see

sleepyhead23 · Answer

dekh abhi hum unn guests ki tarah behave kar rhe hae Jo Ghar mae Kam gate ke pass ' acha toh hum chalte hae' bolke ramayan sunate hae😂

sleepyhead23 · Answer

whatsapp nhi de rhi kyunki telegram pe jyada cute sticker and emojis hae😗

riyad · Answer

haha hnn bye

sleepyhead23 · Answer

bye bye🦛🌻

riyad · Answer

this is my number u don't have to share ur number here

sleepyhead23 · Answer

ss leliya delet karde

sleepyhead23 · Answer

apna number bhi mat rakh!

riyad · Answer

if u want msg krdena nhi toh rehne dena

riyad · Answer

cool

sleepyhead23 · Answer

ohkay 🦛

sleepyhead23 · Answer

acha abhi yeh last wala bye! ohkay!!

riyad · Answer

bye

riyad · Answer

and thank u

sleepyhead23 · Answer

phirse thank you bola na toh chappal se marungi 😒

sleepyhead23 · Answer

10 din ke baad tujhe dekhti hun rukja!

riyad · Answer

😅

sleepyhead23 · Answer

rishuuuuu rishuuu sun kal humara exam postpone ho gaya🤭 abhi news aya tha pata hae...bharat band hae na isiliye

riyad · Answer

aarey congratulations

sleepyhead23 · Answer

thank you bass news aya hae koi University notice nhi aya aayega shayad!

riyad · Answer

fir bhi safe side ke liye padh le subah achanak se dhappa na lag jaye

sleepyhead23 · Answer

nahh kuch nhi hoga petrol pump wagera sab band toh obviously nai hoga exam aur safe side ke liye jitna chahiye utna padhliya🤭 ab bass hoga subha toh thoda overlook karke jaake bass paper pe ulti karungi

riyad · Answer

haha

riyad · Answer

ye bhi shi hai mujhe toh vrna poori books padhni padegi aur 16 subs hai 😅😅😅

sleepyhead23 · Answer

tera telegram id kya hae?

riyad · Answer

name ?

riyad · Answer

riyad hee hai

sleepyhead23 · Answer

yup

riyad · Answer

number Diya hua hai

sleepyhead23 · Answer

acha wait

riyad · Answer

cool

sleepyhead23 · Answer

Urdu mae likha hua hae kya kuch?

riyad · Answer

noo

riyad · Answer

simple Riyad

sleepyhead23 · Answer

show ni kar rha

riyad · Answer

number save kar

riyad · Answer

fir telegram par show hoga

sleepyhead23 · Answer

Abe hannn mae bhi naa budhhu hu maene toh name.hi save nhi kiya

riyad · Answer

koi baat nhi hota hai

sleepyhead23 · Answer

save karliya phir bhi show nhi kar rha

riyad · Answer

uppar search mai jaa

riyad · Answer

jis name se save Kiya hai vhi daal de

riyad · Answer

yaa click on the pencil and start on new chat

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