just breathe dear .... most of the time the problem with expressing yourself is that u think of what people will say if they hear ur opinion so first off stop thinking about their opinion because u matter before anyone else choose you first and what benefit u comparing your self with people on Instagram tiktok ..the thing is that most of the things they portray are fake some are not living the life u see them live some are sad so just know that being u is the best thing u can do for u don't try to be anyone else cuz u have a special quality that no one posses

Everything will work out fine. Since you are clear about what you want, you just need to manifest it and believe that it will happen to you. You have a long way to go since you are still in high school. Plan things in writing and have a look at it once in a while. Imagine yourself doing what you want to and one day you will be living it. :)

when I had a low self esteem about my self ... I one day woke up and said the people am afraid of their opinion are pple like me like and I was in high school so I answered a question in class and no one laughed I then decided that am not going to be quiet any longer I started listing things that where difficult 4 me to do and started trying them and it wasn't easy at all cuz sometimes I cried alot but itz all courage and a mindset that nothing can happen to me when I am being me and I knew I had God on my side to so courage and God are important ... whisper a prayer when thing get difficult and help will come 🤍