Hey! Thanks for reaching out. This is such a long time.
What happened? Any traumatic event?
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I've been in ur shoes and all I can say is who would care the most if you died your family, friends, gf, or bf depending on how u feel u might want to open up to then and see what they think
I have felt that thousand time but dont have to gut to do-scared of pain, and i had no one around me to share my pain and no one asked me how im doing, not even my family- i lost hope in everything, i was just tired of fighting the war of depression all alone. Then a year later i meet this guy who accepted me the way im and he calls to thrice a day to ensue im doing fine. Now i feel greatful that i didnt end my life. Trust me bro/sis, life is exteremly hard but one day life will defiently suprise you so just wait with patient. If the thought of ending your life comes again smile and tell it that a person somewhere in this world is waiting me just for me just to hear my pains, so i have to live for the person. Also try writing how you feel which really helped me. Sucide is never an solution trust me. I hope you will find your life changing person very soon. Remember- "Just stay. Life is preparing to suprise you. So just stay.