Hi, Thanks for speaking your heart out with us. I am sorry to hear about the loss of your grandparents and your father. A loss of a loved one is a very devastating experience that unfortunately all of us have to encounter. The pain of losing someone you love is enough in itself but it sometimes worsen by what follows... Drifts in your family, your mother being abusive are all coming from their own inner challenges. I understand you're exhausted always being the one to take everything on your shoulders but I urge you to do that one more time specially with your mother. I want you to tell her that you and her are in this together. You understand her pain of losing her husband but you have lost a father too. Both of you have to be there for each other. Sharing sadness reduces it and sharing happiness doubles it right? If you shared happy moments with your mother what holds you back from sharing a sad moment with her as well? The person you stay with in and out and spend most of your time with-I feel that relationship has to be worked on firstly. Secondly your friends. I understand we vouch on people a lot and it hurts when they don't meet your expectations. Happens to each of us but honestly we all have us at the end of the day. All you have is yourself. Vouch and rely upon yourself the most and then on anyone else. Having said that, yes support from family and friends means the world but when they have let you down then don't let that be a reason to never get up again. I know it's a tough phase for you and feels like its never gonna be okay but it will be! This is now when you need yourself more than ever before. Clear your head and tell yourself you can do this. You will. Take it one step at a time. Life can be overwhelming but we make it worse by stressing over it way more than it requires. Let the Universe do it's job as well. Take things easily and lightly. Work on improving the relationship with your mother and let her know that being abusive with someone she's only left with is not the best idea. Your relationship is obviously getting affected because you have too much in your plate. Your partner is just someone who loves you but she/he might not be able to fill every void you experience. That is a lot to expect from any individual. Please get back to us with your progress and how you've been feeling lately otherwise. I'd love to hear from you. Lots of love.

You must be in a lot of pain. I'm sorry to hear about the demise of your grandparent and your father. Grief is a process and it takes time. Allow yourself that time and space. You deserve it. With that said, if it is getting to much for you and you feel you have no support from anywhere, please reach out to a professional for therapy. It will help you a great deal. Hold tight. Give yourself time to grieve as you work on your career.