okay so there is this guy we were in relationship but i uaed to feel insecure nd that i m dumb or I'm showing too much love and endless questions. i m really emotionally weak nd i was so attached to him nd mad in love but he left me. nd i was broken badly i used to cry everyday missing him but i didn't disturbed him nd never texted then after one month i was mentally disturbed badly nd really mad at him for what he did so I abused him a lot to make myself calm but in return he started blaming me. then i started feeling bad again insecure nd depressed that i can't take right decision.i m not bold enough. and i still love him a lot but i told him i hate u becoz i was mad. then next day I sensed him voice messages confessing that i still love him but don't wanna be with him. and he didn't reacted left on seen. so now i need help to move on. to focus on myself and need to understand that he is not right for me. please help