I doubt I have depression, I just want to be alone, since I lost the possibility of continuing my dream to be a footballer I can't help my sadnes and suicidal thought, my parents quarrels almost every day, I literally have noone to understand, it's getting harder to get out of bed, I disgust myself, I have extreme level of self hatred, I guess weight loss is seen I went to 38 kg from 44 kg , is it normal in the span of 4 months without even trying? should I consult to psychiatrist?