i'm having suicidal thoughts, growing up i've always been pressured. Pressured to be the good first born, that academically gifted kid, the obedient child to her parents and someone that my younger sibling could look up to. My parents were very strict, i never experienced those that any normal teens would and up until now it's a burden. I missed so much things in my life. I only have few friends, and by that i meant only two as of now and i'm not even their main friend that they trust the most, i can be discarded so easily and be lonely. I'm so tired and i want to give up. I keep on thinking about how can i execute my death...