I have depression and ptsd. I am getting worse day by day. I am so damaged, so fucking damaged and parents they don't understand, i cut myself, i tremble all the time, trigger words make me feel fucked, i am empty, incapable of doing anything. I don't want to end my life. I need help i want help but i dont have money to pay for my mental health for therapist. I wish i could gather enough courage someday and hang from my fan. I am done. I feel done.