I have never experienced true love till now.. not even from parent's.. I have been used all the time.. My friend's used me for money and support, my family used me for money and even the girl's who passed my life used me for sexual benefits.. I am an extrovert, I love people and I always believe everyone.. I don't have priorities, I treat everyone as same and become too close.. I want a better life, I lost money, family, friend's, girl, Hardwork, efforts, happiness, sleep everything and seems like a dead-end for me.. even tried suicide multiple time's.. I hardly need a true friend, who would my core strength throughout my life.. If it's a girl, I can marry her right away.. I want to breathe.. please help me..