I'm soo disappointed with me life. Sometimes, I just want to disappear. I often feel like there's no meaning to my existence and doubt abt why do I even exist. I think that instead of those "Amazing personalities" who died in COVID I would have died instead of them. I even feel like I want to give my lifespan to someone who might really need it! I wish myself death & nothing more. I'm just 18 and I feel like this, I don't know what would happen once I start going to college.