I feel like , I don't belong in this world. I have different thought process compared to others. People can joke about other's weight, appearance and I don't accept those kind of statements. Some people call me boring. There's just so much pain in life. Life is just so painful. And there's so much to do. And there's always this feeling that I am wasting this short time, while feeling stuck in a loop of getting slightly motivated to start properly again for a minute to living the same day again and again.