The very first you should know is you know yourself better than anyone else. My friend, don't think what others think about you. I know it's very difficult to love ourself, but should try it. I am also like you but I know what I am. If somebody is saying hellish worda to you. It means their heart is in hell. Just don't listen what others think or say about you. You are the moon in billions of stars. Just keep shining. Being different is cool until we are happy for being ourself.
Hope this will help you.. ❤