I get this feeling many times, but I don't know to what extent my feelings are true, or if they're just figments of my imagination/social anxiety.
i did a few bad stuff two years ago or something and i lost all my friends during the summer and they just keep making excuses that its the stuff i did years ago ive tried to get them back but they just hate me and i think they just never liked me and now they just found the chance to.
What kind of bad stuff?
They can't forgive you, maybe. But have you forgiven yourself?, Forgive yourself first if you haven't. You apologised and they refused to get back to you. Leave them, true friends understand and forgive each other. You played your part, let them be if they won't make it up to u. U may be losing more interesting and important people to brighten your future if you keep on chasing the past.
i called this one girl ugly bc she hated me and also apparently im a bitch to everyone
True You did a wrong thing calling her a ugly, but you apologised, that's the best thing. Them calling you a bitch is their opinion. What you call yourself is the priority and more important of all.