😥 i honestly feel this way too. especially when she says "one day im gonna be gone..." or stuff like that it really hurts me. but i realized i cant do anyting to stop that or slow it down so what i am doing is to make many memories with her. learn a little more about her everyday and make sure she knows that i appreciate her. its the little things you guys will do together that will make it even easier to live without her. but in the end you know you are showing her that you love her and it will get easier, hopefully like it is getting for me.
I can feel u, I too lost my mom and everything fall apart, had to deal with n number of traumas from step mother, but keep one thing u should make your mother proud by leading a good life... It's very tough to live without a mother but don't worry u r fate will teach you many things