I saw a dream of becoming an IITian at the age of just 10 I started working hard since then.I always come first in my class as I cleared my 10th with good marks everyone were going for IIT coaching but It cost around 3-3.5 lakhs which my father was not able to afford at that time and i was also forced by my relatives not to see such big dreams as my father's income is low. As Jee Advanced is more coaching oriented exam I was not able to crack that in my first attempt but I decided to take coaching offered free to me on the basis of my 12th marks but after 15 days that also got closed due to second wave of covid somehow I made it to clear jee mains because of my own efforts but not jee Advanced even in my second attempt. I sacrificed my happiness, childhood, joy behind IIT but couldn't make it now I find myself helpless and doesn't believe in hardwork gives success. Everyone says I could succeed even in NIT also but I can't forget those 8 years and unable to sleep. I am full of regret.