hello

what happened?

my life is just a mess

what happened?

i just don't understand what is happening in my life.

i have so much of stress and pressure to do something in my life

i told you that I'll do that job do you remember?

yes and what happened with the job?

are u having this kuch stress and pressure due to the job???

then the next day i got another job offer from a bakery so my mom was like if you want to do that previous job do or otherwise you can go to bakery

so i already didn't want to go to that previous job so i call them and told them that i don't want to work there

then after 2 days i went to that bakery for interview. i even like the place since it's of my interest in chocolate and baking

but they they said to do some work in which I'm not ready to do that work . but my moms colleagues were like just go and see how it's going and then if you don't feel like doing just don't go

hey you there?

yeah I'm having stress because of this jobs

so u are having stress because of that bakery job?

am i right???

all jobs and because of my parents and people around me

they are saying I'm confused but they are making me confused.

first tell me what do u want to right now?

which job do u want to do?

that previous job that i didn't want to do and then in this bakery they is a work that I'll not do and plus i have to take care of my health cause i had a surgery back in January so my health is also not good

why u don't want to do that work in the bakery??

i want to do job so that I can do a course of baking but in that also my mom was like that is not easy i have to create every day a new thing s and i know that. so many times I just feel like just forget the things that I want to do and just do a any job so that my parents will be happy

like they want a multitaskers like who can do dishes and all. and i feel like i have studied not for doing dishes and plus i have to stand up there for many hours and attend customers

i feel like my head will explode

Hey?

if the bakery are telling to do those types of job then ig it's better to cancel that.....

ig u should search for part time jobs for now

btw sorry i had some work to do that's why can't reply u back then

and one more thing is the salary of that bakery higher than the other job?

no

it's ok i can understand

then I'll say cancel that bakery....btw did they say that they will give a promotion something in that bakery after sometime?

@zesty I'm literally tired of my life for real like i have to go through alot for even a little happiness

or is the same job for everyday?

i have a pressure of finding a job cause my parents say girl of my age are doing so well and look at me so if I'll find a job they will be quite and not scold me

it's the same everyday

i want u to do something....take a piece of paper and write down all the things u r good at or something u like or u believe u can be good at.....then see through all those which could be beneficial for ur career and focus on those and try to see if this helps

and yesterday I was so much in pressure that I called that person for the job that i previously said no even though I don't feel like going there i call them shemlessly for job again

if it's same everyday then don't take that bakery job

what's the time duration of that other job??

you know i just feel like i should just not think about anything cause what ever i think that never happened

the one that I don't want to go that one?

yes

11 to 6

ig u should join that job for now

i know what i want to do but people makes me confused and then they say I'm confused

if they call me I'll join that Job even i don't have feelings to work there

what do u want to do?

i already told you i want to make chocolate and the want to learn baking so that I can make cake and many more things

but in that as well my mom was like it's not easy you have to create new evry day like where i go what to do i just don't understand why people don't understand me

i love cooking and i really love to make chocolate

so I'll say do that job now and save some money from ur job....andsje make friends in ur workplace......while u do that bake some cake or make chocolate and try to advertise those...maybe give it to ur friends which you'll make in your workplace and when you have enough money saved then leave the job and when you leave your job start your cake and chocolate business as you told and at that time you will have customer which will be your friends from your workplace whom you give your chocolate and cake so you don't have to think about getting new customer and also tell your friends to there other friends about your cakes and then do as you like

I'm thinking about it

you know @zesty I'm tried of this life. my life is like a roller coaster ride every day something new shit have to go through

my mental health is running very bad

my sleeping pattern, eating pattern has changed alot. i don't get sleep in even at night my head just do over thinking

u can consult a psychiatrist

i don't have any money on my hand right now

is there anything that might help u rn?

no

you know eating less or not in time is not good for my health cause i had a interstine surgery few months ago but i just don't feel like eating

and cherry on top i have fears of going out. i get nervous i don't know how to talk to people confidentiality

why don't u start going out to short distance like buying household by nearby shop

like start from small step

that's i do but when it's come to talking to olders or if I'm talking to older people then me i just start shutter i don't know

and if I'm having conversations with someone after some time my mind will be blank like i can hear what the other person is saying but my mind not proceed with the like i don't understand what that person is saying

i feel like i just don't have a brain or my brain is not working. i feel just dumb

u should go to that job.... and save some money and then consult a psychiatrist

this is the best option u have now.... according to what u told me

yeah

many times i just hate my life i don't know what my future holds for me every time just bad happens with me

i have gonna through a lot in my life

u have to wait now and see how things turns out

yeah but you know what I'm afraid to go to the psychiatrist

alone

why?

then maybe take ur parents with u

i can't

why are u afraid of going alone?

i don't know

and i can't tell my parents cause they never gonna understand

but I'll try to go cause i really want to go there and treat my mind

that's good 👍

thank you @zesty i found friend in you 😊

I'll hope from now on my life will spend well

ur welcome