I feel like I'm at the lowest point in my life. everything feels so wrong. I feel numb. feels like everything has been a mistake. like I don't have any real friends . one of the major reasons for me feeling like I'm drowning coz I couldn't excel in studies that well. didn't score well in JEE. ended up in a not so good college and not my desired branch. feel like I've disappointed everyone who believed in me coz I used to top my class. and now I feel I'll do it again even if I try. I don't feel like doing anything or talking to anyone. everything frustrates me. sleep is like my enemy. haven't slept properly in days. have resorted to masturbating tbh which is taking a toll on my body. I don't know what to do. I feel helpless and useless