Enough and enough being good and kind

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hi, I think I have made biggest mistake of my life by switching my Full life time job security job to an uncertain one..not because of Money but maybe because others were doing also..now there is no going back for me...and I can feel I am near my downfall and maybe I will not live more as I am not able to handle even small stress so now I have destroyed by future life..so I have to end my life sooner..till now I used to help anyone without anything in return but when I was in need that God should show me correct way , nothing happened and I made the wrong decision...so why should I continue helping others if there is no one in universe to help us when we need it..it's enough being good to others...now I will make my own way for destruction as this will be my and only my choice...

narayanchitra__17 · Answer

dude... look.. self love is important... prioritize yourself over everything, everyone.... help others... but don't hurt yourself or keep yourself in loss.... being good is okay but being over good is worst... people will use you like a tissue... don't become that. Understand your value!

cynicalthrush8 · Answer

i know... but now I have made wrong decision and I know the magnitude of stress that I am going to face in new company will be that much that I will not have any other option apart from ending my life...as by leaving full life time job security company...I can never be able to join any other MNC again...I have to end my life sooner or later.. although pay is high in new company so only good thing is that when I end my life, atleast I have saved something for them

snufyfan · Answer

it's alright feeling like that. I'm in a place in life where I don't know what's going on and everything just seems to fall apart... but at the same time I'm trying real hard to not give up. for the people who care for me and might be in pain if something bad or misfortunate happens to me. I still believe, atleast i am trying to believe that there's always something good on the way. so don't lose hope and trust that time will fix everything. Hope I could help. Cheers!

cynicalthrush8 · Answer

your point is correct ..as I am very strongly feeling that switching happened not because I wanted...I resigned as others were also doing it and as my decision making power is dead and my most decision are influenced by others as I always others think better than me.  and now on Thursday I have to join other company and I have no happiness rather depression to join ..as I can sense I will fail badly there and even current company offered me little hike but more than 100 still I rejected it due to double thoughts and now I cannot take my resignation back...so I have written by destruction myself...so I guess now I have to end my life so why I should do good things now. ..the more I bad do the sooner I will get badluck wishes from others so It will help me ending my life soon🙁

numbnachos25 · Answer

Never think like that ... people go through stuff you dont need to degrade yourself just cause some people around you are doing that. Stay true to yourself losing a job or quitting is not a downfall . You will be okay. Take care of yourself.Be yourself.I know you are probably an amazing person. Stay strong and try and be happy.

cynicalthrush8 · Answer

but I really don't know how will I going to behave and think in joining new company... even one of my colleague warned me who just switched from same company in which I am working that he is regretting his decision to switch in influence of others and he asked to stay back at the hike the current company is giving... still don't know why I didn't accepted it ..now I have feeling that I am also going to feel the same and I will repent more and more as I made mistake even though I was warned ..now nothing good can happen.. waiting for good is not in our hands but destroying our life surely is in our hands so I will prefer the second one

Frustrating

help me please

how do I change for the better?