I'm lonely.. people don't really stay long in my life. I don't even have any real friends and it makes me sad everyday..
farshy756
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you want to make new friends?
fondshads5
I don't think I want that, I'm just tired of people coming and going out of my life.
farshy756
why does this make you feel lonely?
skylar
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what do u think abt adopting a pet?
fondshads5
no one to talk to @ farshy
fondshads5
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Hmmm... I don't really like being around animals dky
farshy756
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so you don't want to make friends but still wish their would be someone to talk to?
fondshads5
maybe that's it, I'm just stuck in between. don't know what to do. farshy
farshy756
do you find it difficult to trust people or start a conversation?
fondshads5
I find it difficult to trust people...
farshy756
people must have hurt you bad for you to loss trust in people.
skylar
try gardening - sometimes being surrounded by greens help... if u enjoy solitude
fondshads5
Yeah farsh..
farshy756
is it your fault they hurt you?
fondshads5
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@sky. okay. I will give that a try
skylar
any thing abt which ur passionate abt or any hobby which gives u some happiness or peace?
fondshads5
No. No. No, it's not.. sometimes I don't know why they left, and if I try to you know ask them why they treated me like that they just shut me out
farshy756
have these people ever taken advantage of you?
fondshads5
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@sky the only thing I'm passionate about is playing football but how can I do that If I'm scared of people
fondshads5
Yeah farsh, they've taken advantage of me alot of times, I guess I'm a dummy. I let it happen to me over and over again now im Fucked up
skylar
what thing scares u most abt people?
farshy756
why are you afraid about playing football without knowing the people? they can be good also,
fondshads5
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their behaviours towards me @sky
skylar
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hm... can u elaborate.. if u r comfortable?
fondshads5
I play with friends before but now I don't have any friends to play football with and I'm not so good around strangers
skylar
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is it hesitation...?
fondshads5
I'm not comfortable being around people anymore, but music is all I use to block it all out @sky
fondshads5
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No sky not hesitation.
farshy756
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people take advantage of you and then shut you out onces their work is done. you are afraid of being a doormat rigth?
fondshads5
Yeah farsh that's it.
skylar
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I understanding how may feel right now... but at some point u'll have to face people.. but all in due to time, yh? baby steps... if u feel low, or any kind of -ve emotions - allow urself to feel... let it pass through it...,
fondshads5
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okay sky, maybe I would have to start things all over e, regain my talking skills, confidence and all that.
skylar
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that u would have to...., but slowly and effectively... it takes time
farshy756
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you can talk to people who have the same interest as you and don't be afraid to make mistakes while having conversations, everyone makes them. some days you might not want to talk to people and that's fine, everyone has bad days where they just want to be alone.
fondshads5
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Alright sky, talking to you guys really makes me feel kinda cocooned now. I will try
fondshads5
Okay farsh. I will try, I will see how well it can work out again..