I can understand how you feel cos most days thats me. I feel I understand everybody but no one understands me its a warzone for me but to die I confess I thought about it but I can't go thru it. I thought about my parents my siblings my friends would they all miss me so I wondered if whether they miss me or not should even matter. I am here for u if u need a friend. life as they say is a rollarcoaster and they comes to a stop as well, it maybe not ok now but it will be hold on, even at the point of giving up. I still hold on because I believe God has held me up, cries with me, understands me, loves me and see's thru the facade and walls I have built and am relieved at least there is a King who loves even if I don't see Him, and He sure is with you in every step of battle so be strong you have a King standing with you, He has not left u, so don't let go.
such moments come in everyones' lives ..and my piece of advice is whenever such a mood arrives ... be there, experience it ..but NEVER take any decision during this time ...let it come and go ...Nd u feel it to the depth ...but don't take any hasty decision or any decision at all at this point of time....because these are instances and periods of time ...that arrive and go ..so when ur mind gets calm ..sit down and rethink about the problems that irritate and increase ur anxiety . just by analysing your problems ..u will feel almost 50 percent relieved ..but right now ..just sit and let This feeling go away on its own. .