can anyone talk with me I'm not feeling good

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scornfulvenison2 · Answer

hi

scornfulvenison2 · Answer

what happened buddy?

scornfulvenison2 · Answer

are you okay?

guiltystork0 · Answer

not so good

scornfulvenison2 · Answer

what is bothering?

guiltystork0 · Answer

actually

guiltystork0 · Answer

you know what people do wrong to me and then I decided not to trust them again and then I'm feeling like I'm the bad one or I'm doing the wrong thing

peaky04 · Answer

heyy what happened??

guiltystork0 · Answer

hii

stuckbutterfly · Answer

please don't worry it's not your mistake right

guiltystork0 · Answer

i have to tell you the whole story for this you know

peaky04 · Answer

okayy I'm ears you can tell everything

guiltystork0 · Answer

@ peaky i feel like I'm really bad person but i know I'm not

guiltystork0 · Answer

so basically Saturday there's heavy rain fall happened in my city and at that time i was in the office so because there's heavy rain i and my other female colleague were stuck in the office

guiltystork0 · Answer

and like after 2 hours the rain stop and we were going home and at that time my other colleagues a boy who i treat like a brother and a friend because he's very older than me he said wait I'll come with you guys actually he didn't even tell me he told the other girl

guiltystork0 · Answer

he come to help or what i don't know he knows that my Activa was out side the building and that other girls Activa was safe in the basement still he went to help her and told me to wait

peaky04 · Answer

okayy so what's your concern?

peaky04 · Answer

and how you consider yourself a really bad person??

guiltystork0 · Answer

that girls  Activa was good because it's in the basement the one who needed the help was me might my Activa want start i might get stuck but his first priority was that girl and i feel so bad like he used to pretend  like he knows everything about me and cares for me and because of such things i feel so bad

guiltystork0 · Answer

did you read everything

peaky04 · Answer

yes I read everything

peaky04 · Answer

see as I said you earlier that we can control how we act or think but not how someone else thinks or acts

guiltystork0 · Answer

but then why people behave like we are special to them this happens with me twice and that's why it's hurts me more

guiltystork0 · Answer

i can't trust people now

peaky04 · Answer

I know ppl pretend to be your friend , but they are not really your friend

peaky04 · Answer

yes, it can make ppl doubt and not trust anyone

peaky04 · Answer

you can do one thing

peaky04 · Answer

which I have applied and worked for me, so don't expect anything from anyone, like expecting your friends to call you , text you, as you know they might be busy so your thought wouldn't cross in their mind

guiltystork0 · Answer

yeah but the if we have a good bond with the person we automatically start to  expect right

guiltystork0 · Answer

you know what people has always makes me feel like an option that's all every time

peaky04 · Answer

yes that's the nature of human behaviour but when you cross it you'll be happy and no one can hurt you!

guiltystork0 · Answer

and i have a problem of attechment and it's the worst for me

peaky04 · Answer

so leave such ppl who make you feel like an option

peaky04 · Answer

everybody has problem of attachment but how the person deals with it matters

peaky04 · Answer

have you started medidation? as we discussed you said you would do it and start

guiltystork0 · Answer

you know in 2020 i was going through very bad depression and OCD and anxiety and at that time i tell everything to my only one friend i don't have much friend and at that time i told her like I'm going crazy and it's scared me i want to go to psychiatric and i asked her to come with me

peaky04 · Answer

then what happened?

guiltystork0 · Answer

and you know her answer was like i don't have an time for how can I come with you this is her answer and she was a best friend of mine for like 5 years

guiltystork0 · Answer

that her words still makes me cry

guiltystork0 · Answer

when ever i remember those days

peaky04 · Answer

ohh she did bad

peaky04 · Answer

dw, you'll find a good friend

peaky04 · Answer

and move on don't think much about those days , those are long gone just focus on your growth which is important

guiltystork0 · Answer

you know what now I don't want to make you friends I'm not with this

guiltystork0 · Answer

my trust issues started from here only

guiltystork0 · Answer

so today in the office i haven't talked with him nicely but then I don't know why I'm feeling bad or feeling like i haven't done good to him

peaky04 · Answer

don't doubt yourself, you'll always end up blaming yourself

peaky04 · Answer

its okay if you feel like don't want to make new friends, but you need someone to share as we can't share everything with parents and siblings.

guiltystork0 · Answer

yeah

guiltystork0 · Answer

but this thing is bothering me like you know i feel heavy inside

guiltystork0 · Answer

like people hurts me then i feel hurt but even if i treat them bad then also i feel bad and feel heavy inside

peaky04 · Answer

its okayy, to feel such way. But you should have someone to express so you'll be free from inside

guiltystork0 · Answer

actually i talk to one of my friend come sister in the society but then i don't like to tell her many things

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