you know what people do wrong to me and then I decided not to trust them again and then I'm feeling like I'm the bad one or I'm doing the wrong thing
heyy what happened??
please don't worry it's not your mistake right
i have to tell you the whole story for this you know
okayy I'm ears you can tell everything
@ peaky i feel like I'm really bad person but i know I'm not
so basically Saturday there's heavy rain fall happened in my city and at that time i was in the office so because there's heavy rain i and my other female colleague were stuck in the office
and like after 2 hours the rain stop and we were going home and at that time my other colleagues a boy who i treat like a brother and a friend because he's very older than me he said wait I'll come with you guys actually he didn't even tell me he told the other girl
he come to help or what i don't know he knows that my Activa was out side the building and that other girls Activa was safe in the basement still he went to help her and told me to wait
okayy so what's your concern?
and how you consider yourself a really bad person??
that girls Activa was good because it's in the basement the one who needed the help was me might my Activa want start i might get stuck but his first priority was that girl and i feel so bad like he used to pretend like he knows everything about me and cares for me and because of such things i feel so bad
did you read everything
yes I read everything
see as I said you earlier that we can control how we act or think but not how someone else thinks or acts
but then why people behave like we are special to them this happens with me twice and that's why it's hurts me more
i can't trust people now
I know ppl pretend to be your friend , but they are not really your friend
yes, it can make ppl doubt and not trust anyone
you can do one thing
which I have applied and worked for me, so don't expect anything from anyone, like expecting your friends to call you , text you, as you know they might be busy so your thought wouldn't cross in their mind
yeah but the if we have a good bond with the person we automatically start to expect right
you know what people has always makes me feel like an option that's all every time
yes that's the nature of human behaviour but when you cross it you'll be happy and no one can hurt you!
and i have a problem of attechment and it's the worst for me
so leave such ppl who make you feel like an option
everybody has problem of attachment but how the person deals with it matters
have you started medidation? as we discussed you said you would do it and start
you know in 2020 i was going through very bad depression and OCD and anxiety and at that time i tell everything to my only one friend i don't have much friend and at that time i told her like I'm going crazy and it's scared me i want to go to psychiatric and i asked her to come with me
then what happened?
and you know her answer was like i don't have an time for how can I come with you this is her answer and she was a best friend of mine for like 5 years
that her words still makes me cry
when ever i remember those days
ohh she did bad
dw, you'll find a good friend
and move on don't think much about those days , those are long gone just focus on your growth which is important
you know what now I don't want to make you friends I'm not with this
my trust issues started from here only
so today in the office i haven't talked with him nicely but then I don't know why I'm feeling bad or feeling like i haven't done good to him
don't doubt yourself, you'll always end up blaming yourself
its okay if you feel like don't want to make new friends, but you need someone to share as we can't share everything with parents and siblings.
but this thing is bothering me like you know i feel heavy inside
like people hurts me then i feel hurt but even if i treat them bad then also i feel bad and feel heavy inside
its okayy, to feel such way. But you should have someone to express so you'll be free from inside
actually i talk to one of my friend come sister in the society but then i don't like to tell her many things