I always knew no one is going to be with us for long time , death is for everyone , I accepted it many times , I never showed or gained love from other , but I love a girl and my mom, now my mom is bedridden she has lot of health issues like diabetes (more than 450) , I wanted to live with my mom happily upto I grew up , I want her to live and stay with me for 40 more years , I only love these two and these two only love me I don't want to loose these two women in my kife