I'm not sure where to start..I never speak on my feelings I just hold it all in ..I have for years but I just can't do it anymore ..I've tried so hard to be a good mother and take care of my children only to have them both constantly disrepect me ..I hold on to a toxic relationship only bc I want to feel loved ..some times I do but mostly pained...I have no friends bc I can't trust anyone bc ppl always seem to use me or run over me and my family don't understand me ..I'm just to the point to giving up ..