Everything is stressing the fuck Outta me. Like I'm trying so hard after whatever happened but it's not working! Everything bad that's happening, is happening to me not the people who literally destroyed me. I'm so tired of this, and wanna end it for once and for all but I can't. Not because I'm scared but because of my parents, they'll just label me as a "coward" or "loser" and I'll forever be remembered as the "disappointment" or someone who was mentally sick and did the right thing by not killing themselves. All these just hurts so bad!