I also feel very angry and kind of wish of hurting myself(wont ever do it)

can you explain more why or since when you feeling this way

Hey! I am sure it must be bad. Has anything happened?

i dont know why I am feeling this way....its been a month i guess. Cant even sleep properly. Before i would be asleep as soon as my head hit the pillow...but now a days it takes a lot longer

I am sure your mind must be occupied with something.

I dont know, I seem to know nothing at all. I feel so lost

I am not violent at all....like I wouldnt even hurt an ant but lately I have been frequently feeling the want to hit or punch somebody.

May be there is anger related to something you aren’t aware about. What do you do? How is your relationship with friends and family?

Maybe its the failure, I had already taken a drop in the course and failed again and now I feel like a big failure. It can also be the way my dad treats all of us. Doesnt think twice before saying anything and his words always hurt like hell.

I dont even like to work now a days. Like first I would complete my errands but now a days I dont even feel like touching them

I see, lets connect over a session and talk about this in detail.

Can we please just talk about it here ? Another thing that happens is my mind feels hollow. Its as if it forgot to understand things i.e. only while studying

That is because your mind is preoccupied with the negative thought of past event.

so, what do i do now to stop feeling empty n confused and worthless n a big failure n lost n violent ?

Let’s try to find a perspective, we can talk about it. Can we connect over a session?

I am sorry, let’s talk here only. I missed that you wanted to talk here.

Tell me can we go back to change the things that has happened?

Not until we time travel :)

Exactly me point, Let’s focus on present. What are the things that are in your control right now?

Nothing seems to be in my control

What do you do during the day? What is your short term goal?

For now I just help my mom in the kitchen. NOt sure about any of the goals. Cant think straight. Have a constant feeling of running away

Let’s try to divert the attention towards something productive.

like ?

Setting a goal for you.

what goal ?

Actually I had a goal with my career but I am very very confused and failed too, so it all went down the drain

What was it about?

After 10th I wanted to do psychology but wasnt sure at all so my mom suggested that I get into commerce so I can change later but then I got into BSc(Applied stats and analytics) and also pursued actuaries side by side. Its been 3 years and I havent cleared a single paper in actuaries, had to repeat a year in BSc and yet again failed. I always wanted to know what goes behind peoples behaviour and thinking i.e. psychology, so I thought that after I complete my degree in BSc, I will pursue psychology and actuaries side by side. But since I failed in BSc it feels like I have gone crazy and all my plans went haywire

I see, i think you are not able to cope with your current subject, pursuing psychology later won’t have any scope, if you want to pursue psychology as a career you should consider taking it in your graduation as well.

ya i meant taking a graduation degree in psychology

Its like I wanted to do it somehow so I thought I will pursue it after I complete my BSc

You are planning to do 2 graduations?

I was. But now its all gone haywire

I think you should reconsider and discuss with your family, 2 graduation isn’t a very wise option, after graduation either look for gaining experience or Masters program.

NO like after BSc, I was going to pursue actuaries which is a proffessional course like CA. And since it is not possible that I do masters along with it I thought I can pursue Bachelors in psychology

Okay

But now, I dont have any plans at all. Esa lagta hai jese sochne samajne ki shakti hi nhi bachi

Esa nhi hona chaeye, sochiye phir se, hum aapke plans discuss krskte hain.

pata hai muje ki esa nhi hona chaiye par fir bhi ho rha h

Kuch socha aapne?

Kya sochu ?

Apne career k baare me

I am thinking that I can still pursue actuaries, and if nothing happens about me failing ASA, I will pursue psychology as I was always intrigued about why humans behave the way they do or what goes behind that particular thought of theirs

Okay

so, what do you think ?

I mean it’s your call, you should first try to understand what is it that you feel more driven towards.

what do you think are the necessary qualities in a psychologist ?

Why don’t you research about it. There are many. You can come up with your doubts and I can answer them.

Okayy

Right now I just feel like shouting my lungs out. I feel very irritated and frustrated all the time. I am also very confused and I feel like I dont know whats going on around me and why I do what I do why do i feel this way and how do i stop it ?

I think you should give yourself a break.

break as in ?

I think there is lack of peace around u. Can u tell something more? So i can help u if possible.