fighting depression from a long time,lacks motivation and unable to share emotions

Question

Well I think I have been fighting depression for the past year. I stopped doing things that I love I like playing football or watching live matches. I lack the will to do anything or enjoy at all. I have disconnected with my friends and always feel that I am alone. My confidence is very low. Feel like everyone hates me or is talking shit about me. I am not able to share my feelings or be completely honest about how I am feeling or what I have been going through with anyone or any platform. Even I here I'm restricting myself. I have good qualifications but still have no will to do something for myslef. There is no motivation

Newme · Answer

Start of 2020, Just before the pandemic. Also, I stress a lot when I am not doing anything. It's like the saying Empty mind is a Devil's workshop. I realised I worry a lot about the result which stops me from trying to do new things or start a new one. All this is also affecting me physically as I have developed a bad sleep schedule and Laziness. Instead of tackling my problems I sleep over it. I am unable to set goals even if I do I neglect it.

Newme · Answer

I'm actually at a difficult spot right now, I am actually clueless about what excites me. It used to be soccer, was crazy behind it but now it doesnt excite me anymore.  It is like I am finding reasons to avoid doing anything maybe because I know I am not gonna succeed at it. I am a place where I also Find it difficult to give a chance to anyone. I avoid talking to anyone because I become more concern about what the other person is thinking and also to become to cautios instead of being me

Frustrating

help me please

how do I change for the better?

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