I have been suffering through depression since 2003 when I was just a kid, have been through all kinds of abuse in my family. Somehow I still managed to believe in love and I tried and did everything. Right now I am in the process of breaking up my current relationship because it's becoming way too toxic for me as I have been suicidal more than I have ever been in my life. I am trying to be strong. My Mental health is now affecting my physical health and I feel like I am slowly dying. I am lost and I need help, I need a way out from this life. I need a Job can someone please help me with one? I live in Mumbai. All I want is to not die and live a better life. Can please someone suggest a way out of everything as I can't seem to do it myself. I want myself back, I want my confidence and will to be alive, to feel something.