I feel am in an endless loop, experiencing the same pain caused by mistakes/choices I make but I am not aware of it, unable to learn & change it. I was overweight all my life & in 2019 I decided to get in shape & reached ideal weight in 2020 but my weight kept fluctuating ever since that time. I kept adding on 5 kgs & again reducing those 5 kgs like this it happened for 3-4 times. Then I noticed my body is not looking gud bcos of the continuous weight gain & loss. I came to a conclusion that atleast I need to maintain this weight and avoid gaining anymore. But unfortunately it didn't happen I regained all the weight I had lost. I feel reason is I was overconfident that even if I gain I will lose again but I didn't understand the fact that it's impacting my health negatively. Now my parents are searching a partner for me I want to reduce the weight again but it's even more difficult this time seemingly impossible. I am afraid that even if I reduce the weight again I may not look good.