I quit my job as a lead in a company to start my own. And I am living by myself away from family and it was going good - not great but slow and steady. and I didn't feel depressed. Frustrated, had lots of mood swings and was anxious but half of them were actual good days. I am now visiting my family for a month and two weeks in, I am back to being depressed again. it feels like a losing battle. I know exactly why I'm feeling this way and I know the trauma that happened in the past but being home, it's just got triggered and now I can barely get out of bed. And I can't even blame my family because they had their own trauma - call it generational trauma? Two weeks till left and I hope I can survive it till I'm back to my place. and also broke because I haven't been able to work and every single day waking up is painful. I know dying is not an option, but I feel like I'm in my longest death already.