I have no freedom, I'm 18 almost 19 and I can only go out once a month without feeling guilty,all my friends and people my age are going out often and I feel like I'm under house arrest and I don't like it here it's so oppressive. Nobody hits me up really and I needed a place to vent where it doesn't feel like I'm seeking attention. All of my friends are cool with my ex and the way he acts and what they told me I feel guilty that I declined his friendship and now it haunts me but I know not neingbhis friend was the right choice he was toxic. I'm drained socially and I feel tired all the time when i try to get my life together am discouraged by my parents and money,I'm job searching but i have not finished school as yet and it's frustrating. I don't want to keep burdening my boyfriend by complaining to him all the time so I bottle things up and end up being irritable. I feel lonely and unimportant. I have anxiety