why is it so hard for people to understand that i didnt deserve the shit that happened to me, and that i may have made a mistake by going back to my abusive ex but doesn't mean that i can just get rid of the ptsd and the anxiety and depression that he caused. it doesn't mean that because he hurt me, i should just forget all about him and not feel anything. it's not easy being anxious and depressed all the time. i hate the feeling. it just gets so overwhelming and i'm never understood. and idk what to do anymore. i feel myself tipping over the edge and idk if i can or want to stop it.