I'm not a bad person and I wish and pray for other people to be happy and achieve things. I am happy when I see them happy but though a part of me is happy to see other's achieving things another part is depressed and is hurting. When I feel bad about myself hurting for other's achievement it suffocates me more. I can't tell this to anyone because people will think I am extremely jealous I'm not denying I'm jealous but I want to feel genuinely happy for them but I can't