I turned 18 last September and honestly, I don't want to go on anymore. I'm addictive to self harm, got several cuts on my arms and thighs. It's only when I cut myself that I feel better. I get panic attacks now and then. Mom says I become emotional in unnecessary things and i think to much about these.. I don't know honestly.. For now it's just terrible. Sometimes i wanna pop in all those sleeping pills.. I just don't wanna stay here..