when I was a kid, I used to be very happy but as an adult life is so difficult. I don't remember when I was happy, like really happy. I pretend to be happy but there's this sadness inside me that I can't get rid of. I don't want anything in life, I don't want to achieve my goals, I don't want to be successful, I don't want to be rich, I just want to be happy. I just want my genuine smile back, I don't want to pretend to be happy, I want to be happy.