Hard to breath at my workplace

Question

So it's been some days, I can't breath properly because of the anxiety. I spend my 9 hours max in my office from like 8 till 5 or 6. and my boss doesn't even value me. Plus I fell in love with a guy who is very immature. I am a person who keeps to herself only. I don't talk or gossip with anyone which isn't needed. It's just I was never like this I was very talkative and extrovert who loved to talk but as time passed I have become an introvert and shy person. I don't know what I should do. ? I have to earn for myself, I just can't resign but I don't have motivation to do anything it's just I am never valued. my choices are never valued. I deserve so much but I never get that and someone else gets things which are meant for me. I am suffering from mental health from 8 years now. I don't know how long I have to suffer more.

farshy756 · Answer

you can talk to a therapist?

annejaffery · Answer

I think I really need to now. I have taken many sessions already but it helps for sometime and then depression comes back

annejaffery · Answer

I have a very good job I got admission into very well reputed University for my Postgraduate studies but m not happy

annejaffery · Answer

I don't know what's missing in my life.

farshy756 · Answer

do you let other people take advantage of you?

annejaffery · Answer

yes, very often.. I am a nice person and dumb too people actually take advantage

farshy756 · Answer

do you have any wish list or are their any things you want to do but can't get time for?

annejaffery · Answer

Ugh yeah, I don't have time for myself actually I can't spend time alone. because I'm always very busy. I work on Saturday it's like another volunteer job. so I only get Sunday. there are no special wishes actually I don't like to do shopping. or anything like that

farshy756 · Answer

why you can't spend time alone?

annejaffery · Answer

hmm.. I don't have time for myself.

farshy756 · Answer

just because you're busy or you try to keep yourself busy?

annejaffery · Answer

I have so much to do in my life I have to struggle very hard

annejaffery · Answer

I try to keep myself busy. that's true you got me.

farshy756 · Answer

what you want to do in life?

farshy756 · Answer

you can't achieve anything in life without struggling.

annejaffery · Answer

I want to live alone adopt some pets.

farshy756 · Answer

do you live with your parents?

annejaffery · Answer

my parents they always push me and pressurise me to get married to my ex. because they like him and this guy my ex he left me after 3 months its been 2 years. I don't trust him anymore. I don't get why my parents don't understand this

annejaffery · Answer

yes. I live with my family but when I reach home at the end of the day there is only one discussion about getting married.

farshy756 · Answer

that's whh you want to live alone, so you don't have to deal with this, and adopt pets because you don't like being alone.

annejaffery · Answer

yes absolutely

annejaffery · Answer

I don't know when things will get better for me

farshy756 · Answer

when you try to make them better.

annejaffery · Answer

How can I make them better

annejaffery · Answer

I'm trying my best. all I want my parents to understand me that if I don't get a good partner I don't need to get a toxic one

farshy756 · Answer

do you not confront people when they hurt you, for the fear of being rude or getting judged?

annejaffery · Answer

I never hurt anyone with my words I keep things inside me which bothers me for days

farshy756 · Answer

have you confronted your parents about your disapproval for the marriage? what was their first reaction?

annejaffery · Answer

Many times. Almost everyday

farshy756 · Answer

do you they ignore your words?

annejaffery · Answer

yes.. they say he is right for me.

farshy756 · Answer

I think the reason your choices are not respected is because you let other people take advantage of you and don't confront them when they hurt you, so you help other people when you have your own problems which makes you exhausted and you are not able to make any changes in your life.

farshy756 · Answer

since when you have been working?

annejaffery · Answer

it's been 1 year and 8 months now.

farshy756 · Answer

according to you, when you can move out?

annejaffery · Answer

2 years.

farshy756 · Answer

right now you should go for therapy, it will help you with your problems, and start staying no when needed, don't put unnecessary stress on yourself, set boundaries and confront people when they hurt you.

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