Sometimes it's extremely hard to carry on and i frequently want to die. I tried to kill myself self 2 years ago and this year things got bad again and I tried again, but now I'm back in councelling. I have seen the brighter days I've experienced peace. And I urge others to carry on as well, but I don't wanna feel like a hypocrite if I do die. I know I will always feel this way, it's a part of me, and i have to learn to cope. I want to live.