i have lost everyone closest to me because of my lies, and behaviour. treated my ex badly. my best friend of nearly 30 years has now turned her back on me. when i opened up to my father and sore the pain and dissapointment in his eyes it broke me. i feel so broken and dont know who to turn to. i want help to change but cant afford it. i am suffering badly with anxiety and depression. i never wanted to believe i had anything wrong with me but i see i have everything wrong wifh me and i dont want to be this person amymore.