Hey people, I want to share with you all and I really want this to help ya all too in some way, so here it goes... since college I guess I am living in autopilot mode doing everything day to day activity like a foolish robot and acting in a way peers around me want to and meanwhile all I waited for to go somewhere very far off in my case overseas for a fucking post grad degree or something. But damn lockdown happened at the time I passed out of my grad school so plans failed got shut down in my own house for months cried screamed in pillows and did what not to try to easy out the hole in the chest I felt growing bigger and bigger than I took the first job I got and started living again in auto mode but thn I discovered anime yh I used to watch those when I was little the Pokemon and stuff. But now I started watching it again and fornthe first time I see hope that my life can have some kind of meaning afterall, because of the stories I watched in anime