Is numbness normal? Its like something heavy is placed on your head and you can't do anything about it or dont have the energy to. At 35 i feel i did things of no value and turned out to be something. Counting my blessing - i have a good/great husband. for past 10 years and i am torturing him with my urges to die and not listening when he talks and not cooking meals for him on time and not earning consistently. My pay delays as per my work and at times i sit and just feel the urge to end everything making me late to do my work. He says he would be happier alone but he would not do what he does for anyone else. I love him too much to torture him like this anymore.