hi

l don't know much about marriage because l haven't been one.. but what l do know is love... yess you love him and you forgive him.. I think its high time you end the relationship because despite forgiving him he still does it and he isn't even changing... for the sake of your kids l think you need to move on because they don't deserve a father like him.... it might be hard but think about it what's the point of forgiving if they hurt you over and over again

in my opinion I think you should leave him, you know that saying once a cheater always a cheater. and he even abuses you, just leave him I know it will be hard but it worth it.

you should divorce him, he has cheated on you, lied to you, doesn't respect you, has broken promises, he will keep on hurting you because he knows once he asks for forgiveness you will forgive him. I know raising children alone is difficult but you don't want your children to call a characterless man their father, so think about this, for your children and mostly importantly yourself, do you want be in a relationship with a man who has never valued your worth?

Don't waste your life, listen to the people here, and file for a divorce. Life is much more than this.

😭😭 he is blaming me for all of these things he is doing bcz I am always speaking hush to him everything I found that he did something, so he said if I was not that rude when I found something he would have been changed long time, I feel like a useless wife, on the other side I don't know how will I take care of my child. am not even working. how will I deal with his parent(uncles and aunt)there were so rude the first time I told then about our situation. and also my Pastor is sick I don't want to put stress on him and his wife, on the other hand I don't have home I grew up in my extended family I don't have parent not even working, really am confused 😭😭😭😭. am afraid of more depression and stress after living him I love him, I don't know I still love this person after soo many things he did to me 😭😭

don't get manipulated by his words, he is gaslighting you and making you feel bad about yourself so he can hide his deeds. don't feel guilty or bad about yourself, you are an amazing mother and have been an amazing wife to your husband, it's just him who doesn't deserve you, don't lose hope, you need to get yourself together and make a plan, you need to consider a lot of things and it will take time till then try to prepare yourself for the upcoming divorce and start looking for some part time jobs (if you're husband allows you to do it), but if he doesn't then, try to save money out of his income and start looking for houses to rent now only, if possible and accessible, you can also go to a non-profit organization to help you in this situation and if you have any friend or well wishers you can ask them for help. don't give up, it's your right to be in a loving relationship and don't let anyone make you feel bad for what you deserve. see the price for affording a lawyer or else your husband can take away your children from you.

he looks like a narcissist to me, blaming you when he's in the wrong. I know that you love him, but there's no hope for him or your relationship. trust once broken is never restored. just leave him it will be hard as you have no one to depend on. so first of all why don't you find a job. and when you think you are in stable condition move out and leave him for good. it will be hard as a working mom but it will be worth it.