I am stuck in a place where I can't sleep I have a friend who keep telling me to lose weight that I am way too fat and ugly that no one would ever like me. I mean sometimes it's okay but that's all he ever does always bodyshaming and stuff in front of everyone. I was supposed to go a trip with them but for one my parents aren't agreeing and two a friend among them used to like me and now he likes someone else by the time I realised I have feelings for him that's making me really uncomfortable. I just feel like maybe I don't deserve any one coz I am fat or ugly as they say. I don't know if going to this trip is a right decision for me. I have stopped eating meals as well.