I am stuck , feeling helpless and most alone person in whole world .. feeling like crying everything

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hello everyone ....I really want help . I am  stuck . I don't know whom I approach to tell about my condition . I have nobody who understands me and my situation . things are becoming more and more harsh . I again fell in same cycle of anxiety and depression . my exams and important phase  of my life is near ..it's too near ..but I can't do anything ..I am behaving like lifeless creature ... things are really complicated ..I can't help me anymore ..I can't sit and study anything. I have not covered my syllabus  and not even try to do it .. it's not that I don't sit and try to study ..I do it but things are not happening that way ..I loses interest in study ..I can't focus ...I am so sad from inside ..I am feeling like broken from inside ...also I have lot of regret for everything ..I don't know what exactly i am suffering from ....for everybody I am well and everything is happening good for me but it's not that..I can't express myself in front of anybody ..I am mobile addiction and

Vai · Answer

I understand dear .. u need to first feel happy dear ..

Vai · Answer

U have to feel good and happy first .. ur mind also needs to calm dear .. relax n listen to music n lay down u will feel good and listen to good n relaxing music

wandrlust · Answer

yeah vai is right .try to calm down i know its hard because of your approaching  exams but calming down faster can help you regain your composure.do anything to distract or entertain yourself make yourself happy .excercise or mediation make sure to do that .there is a Google meet in 8 pm today try to join that .you can share and talk anything .it can really help you too.i will pray for you and all the best for your exams too dear

praiseayu · Answer

I am trying a lot to come out of it ...I am chilling out .. listen music and watch film ..but nothing is helping me ...I am not enjoying anything ...

praiseayu · Answer

I can't explain how tough it is for me .....

Vai · Answer

Google meet in 8 pm .. can I know details

Vai · Answer

See dear, I feel it is because u r getting more cautious .. u have to be very cool .. try talking out to someone who will encourage n not distract .. a person who will divert ur mind from being worried but not distract u from studies

praiseayu · Answer

i have no personal room .. where I can share on phone ....I don't know what I do ...I am stuck yrr ... really frustrated out of my life and situation

praiseayu · Answer

I really want share everything and make my heart out in front of someone ...but how

Vai · Answer

You can tell me .. I am here to listen to you, I am a girl too

praiseayu · Answer

it's not I am too cautious ....my situations are so annoying for me ...I am just seeing problem and negativity around me

Vai · Answer

I understand .. it's like u gain some courage n then

Vai · Answer

it is like someone says something n it just annoys and then makes u even more discouraged kinda

praiseayu · Answer

yes ....I feel like .. everybody is discouraging me

praiseayu · Answer

I really want some body understand me ..I feel like nobody understand me

wandrlust · Answer

the Google meet i mentioned is a a social circle where you can talk about anything there will be other people who will listen and talk with you .we won't need to turn camera on or anything .they really help of you want advice or vent yourself .

praiseayu · Answer

and I see everybody is soo cool and enjoying their life ....and whole year I had done only thing only study ...and now when exam are near ..I lose interest in study ..... this is so strange for me ...I don't know what actually happening with me

wandrlust · Answer

praiseayu have tried excercise .it really helps .

praiseayu · Answer

I know about Google meet  listening circle and I want to try ..but I can't now ..I had told u na

praiseayu · Answer

yes .. From last one year ..I am doing yoga daily ..but from last two months ..I am losing interest in everything ..I just want to only sit and do nothing

praiseayu · Answer

this is like I become too negative girl ....i think everything happening with me is bad.  .

Vai · Answer

I understand .. u really need to feel n calm .. try talking to someone who is really close to you, spend time .. I will suggest u one good thing that will make u feel better .. go and pet a dog and feed it .. I mean stray dog .. atleast feed them if u r afraid or as such .. it will make u feek good

Vai · Answer

Stray dog don't get much love and food right

praiseayu · Answer

u know .....two days ago ..I attend farewell party of our 12th batch ....and it was so strange .. like I was present there but not enjoying ..I was sitting alone on chair .. watching Everyone ....I was smiling but that was totally fake ...I was really crying from inside .... this was soo hard to stay there ..I wanted to run away from there .... why I am behaving so foolish ....this is enough ..I want to move on from this dig

praiseayu · Answer

yes I will try

praiseayu · Answer

please tell me what should I do now to change my life now .. like I want to move on from this feeling ...... without approaching anyone ...

Vai · Answer

it is like everyone have their own groups n u feel left out .. I had some similar situation in 9th u can say .. it's like u feel so ajeeb sa n u want someone to talk good about u n make u feel good .. but trust me u r good because .. no matter how hard things are going u r being strong n studying hard and yet smiling and not showing things to people

wandrlust · Answer

i actually am going through that phase.iam having my exams too and I messed it up.what calmed me a little is excercise and that Google meet i mentioned.but still i am not really myself .

praiseayu · Answer

will feeding stray dogs make me good ...and will it change my feelings and perspectives ?

praiseayu · Answer

yup ..I think should try to involve me in something different ...

Vai · Answer

Idk y I feel petting dogs stray ones will help you as they will never see ur weakness n always give u attention and value ur love .. like u r very strong but people have different different advices, views and suggestions that sometimes may not suit u or help you .. sometimes u need someone to make u feel good n trust me stray animals help here a lot .. just give them a little love n they love u back .. just see to it the are not infected with disease .. rest is fine

wandrlust · Answer

who says nobody understand you .i really understand you.in my school i am like invincible sometimes .i am in 12 th too you know . sometimes i am soo alone .but there are people in your life who loves and care for you or will come in your future.i really tried to reach out to find solutions but couldn't find anything.just go forward with your life doing what you can .that what I am doing now.

praiseayu · Answer

yes I really need love ..a honest love from animal ...I will do it for sure ..thnx @vai .... thanks a lot

wandrlust · Answer

trying  something like reading , drawing ,listening to new type of music ,watching different genres .i have tried it all .all I got was a distraction which eventually turned addiction and now i am trying to solve that addiction😅🤦.so try to do it in moderation and don't be like me too praiseayu.

Vai · Answer

See ur views and perspectives are entirely different deary .. it can obviously make u feel good as far as I know .. I feel petting them n they come to me with a smile n it really makes me feel good, I was afraid of dogs n I saw a dog delivered 7 puppies .. I normally started taking care of her n giving food and water .. simply feeding later it always use started coming to me .. n that's how love spreads

praiseayu · Answer

I agree wanderlust..... hope any one understands me actually ...I will wait for that person ..

Vai · Answer

Views and perspectives regarding things are of oneselves right .. all have different way of thinking

praiseayu · Answer

yes ... actually u know ...every body judge me so differently .. wha exactly I am not ...I am not like what they think of me ....I have met so many people in my life but everyone does not understands ..they had different images for me ...

praiseayu · Answer

but .. this idea to make a bonding with animals seems soo good to me ..I will try it for sure

praiseayu · Answer

yes ..I will try to reduce my phone use wanderlust....and try reading and listening

Vai · Answer

The best thing I would suggest is to watch videos related to stories of Mahabharata .. it will really help you u watch something humorous before starting with Mahabharata or watch things a little simultaneous kinda .. But make sure u do watch Mahabharata it really helps

Vai · Answer

If u read it is way more better or listen then too, for ur ease I suggested videos

praiseayu · Answer

ok vai ..I will watch it

Vai · Answer

U definately try bonding with animals

praiseayu · Answer

thnx bot of u ..@vai and @wanderlust

praiseayu · Answer

vai ..In which class u are in

praiseayu · Answer

vai ..I also want to share one thing

praiseayu · Answer

will u listen it

wandrlust · Answer

wish you happiness praiseayu and vai too

Vai · Answer

Nature always makes u feel good and so connected to good things .. doing good will always help ..

Vai · Answer

Yeah sure .. u can share

Vai · Answer

I am actually 23 years old .. my last qualification was 12th too .. 5 years ago later due to some health issues I had to stop with my studies ..

Vai · Answer

U too Wandrlust

Vai · Answer

I am waiting praiseayu

praiseayu · Answer

I have not been any relationship and all  till now ...I never allow anybody in my life to come ...but from last few day I have very strange feeling for a boy .he is my classmate .. thought not a regular student ...I feel like he is just like me ..he is so humble and kind ...I feel like I really like him ..but I don't want to be in anything like this .. relationship and all

praiseayu · Answer

and also he has girl best friend ..he is not in relationship ..but they have really good bonding ..both of them are really close and that girl is my friend and she tells they are childhood friend

praiseayu · Answer

and I don't want to approach him ..but I really like him ...and this a going on in my mind ...and disturbing me a lot

praiseayu · Answer

I just want to forget it

Vai · Answer

it's a feeling I understand .. just make sure u r safe .. don't go ahead that can lead to some other issues .. make sure u can trust him .. n don't expect too much for now .. be normal but it's fine to like .. talk to him normally for now but don't be so much like for now .. we don't know the other side n even exams are nearing so it will be good if u don't get into problems but yeah if he makes u feel encouraged and he is nice his way too make a good frndship bond but don't get too attached for now such that u get sad or aisa kuch

praiseayu · Answer

she I am feeling like...just because I am not in good condition now a day ...I am seeking for someone .. that why I am becoming too possesive for that....but I know this all Never work out for me .... there is no future of it

praiseayu · Answer

I have to act smartly

praiseayu · Answer

no I can't talk to him...and I want to concentrate on my studies only and nothing ......may he is too good and it's true I like him soo much some where ..and it's happening with me for first time ....but that has to be end asap ....

praiseayu · Answer

BCz I am already going through tough phase ...and in future if anything bad happened i will be broken and shattered ....

praiseayu · Answer

he already have girl best friend ..yes they are claiming as good friend only ...but in future they may come close ..and it has high possibility ..Bcz they have really good bonding ..they daily talk to each other on video call

praiseayu · Answer

vai ..are u there

praiseayu · Answer

tell me how I forget all this ...

praiseayu · Answer

do u have any idea ... Bcz u re girl ... suggest me. .. something I want to come out of it .....

Vai · Answer

Just be normal .. whenever he is near you think u r talking to a girl n be normal .. just bond like a normal casual friend .. n think that kahi na kahi u r giving the importance islie u r feeling that way .. simply think ki what if kal after working hard I will be in a good position and that time this won't really matter

Vai · Answer

U know dear .. u are really smart

Vai · Answer

U are mature I must say ..

Vai · Answer

self importance is important too .. and self love too .. love yourself such that u just don't get selfish .. baaki it is fine

Vai · Answer

Where are u

praiseayu · Answer

yes

praiseayu · Answer

I am here

praiseayu · Answer

sry...for late

Vai · Answer

aahh that's okay

Vai · Answer

u there on insta btw

Vai · Answer

idk I liked talking to u .. kinda my little sister

praiseayu · Answer

but agar casual friends ke tarah v baat ki .. to meri feeling uske liye aur strong ho jayegi aur expectations v ... phir chije aur complicated ho jayegi

praiseayu · Answer

thnx . vai ..I am really so comfortable and special while talking to u

praiseayu · Answer

but I am not using insta

Vai · Answer

to mat hi jaao baat karne .. just ignore .. think ki me hi to importance de ri hu .. muje apne aap ko iss jagah dena hai chahiye filaal

Vai · Answer

What do u use then

Vai · Answer

even me I liked talking too

praiseayu · Answer

but I too want to talk to u .

Vai · Answer

so where can we connect .. tell me something u use .. like telegram is also fine

Vai · Answer

there u need not share number and still can talk ..

praiseayu · Answer

yes ..I need not to approach him to talk to him ..I have to forget him .. that I didn't ever have any any feeling for that guy ...I know its little hard ..but worthy

Vai · Answer

Yeah that's like my kinda little sister ... haha

praiseayu · Answer

see ..I was using telegram ..but I deleted due to some reason ..

Vai · Answer

okay some other place then

praiseayu · Answer

I can share number here ..u can note it and then I will delete it ..Bcz for now I am only using WhatsApp

Vai · Answer

ok

Vai · Answer

write fast

praiseayu · Answer

if u agree then I will share it here ..or if u can ..then u too can share and then delete it from chat

Vai · Answer

no one is here so

praiseayu · Answer

did u note it down

Vai · Answer

delete fast

praiseayu · Answer

I will delete it right now

praiseayu · Answer

finally

praiseayu · Answer

😌😌😌

Vai · Answer

btw what is ur name

Vai · Answer

I don't know what to write in contacts

praiseayu · Answer

so ...u  can msg me ..u don't need to share ur no

praiseayu · Answer

I am Ayushi shardul

praiseayu · Answer

and ur name

Vai · Answer

ok

praiseayu · Answer

and u too like my sister 😘😘

praiseayu · Answer

u don't know how much I am feeling light after talking to u 🥰

Vai · Answer

😘😘😘😘😘

Vai · Answer

Vaishnavi

praiseayu · Answer

ok

praiseayu · Answer

then bye...let meet there

Vai · Answer

Yeah

hello

Frustrating

help me please

how do I change for the better?