I u dont deserve n still u are getting it then it means u r blessed by God. n u should everything with smile. so chin up n just enjoy what u have without worrying about the world

Everyone goes something, everyone has some problem beacouse we humans aren't perfect, everyone works for a place in this world (No matter who, what one works with, poor - to rich and so on.). Not rare pepole don't tell the hole picture, maybe on purpose focous on the good or bad, switch can be half og the truth. Maybe not br so hard on your self, try some the games they play, in private or with someone else, thrn those you work with. step for step. Try, before failing you self, (Give your self a chance, then tell your self, you can't. If you tell your self, you can't, risk is, you can't. Possible love games, even tough one is a introvert.) Not sure why don't deserve. (any deeper reason, why you see your self, not earned...?) most likely you worked your way to it. for some, what you see as big challange, some would see the opisit, and see as the small challange and the other big challange. (Sometimes, make it bigger challange, then it really is, our self even.) You can learn games, even if introvert. Just have to be will, try make the first step, try the games, try see if some of them, you seem be fine at. (most join more, to have contection or contact, with others, then the game it self.) not everyone talker, while playing games and some introvets. is offcourse up to you to choose! but would you really die trying. as mentiont, don't have to play right away, togther with those you work with. (some games able play exsample try only..) Don't have expect ve perfect at everything (Witchvis very high level bar, to expect one self to live up to), but you can try work on your games skill, so it becomes better and maybe try get better at over time, if you wanna. exsample don't be so hard on your self or expect too much of your self, but you can try your best tough. (started with it, you weren't perfect and took it step for step and tried become good, right? Once you couldn't speack one word.) All starts from somewere, as long we try. (even if sometimes can seem like we growing slowly and fast at something else...)Good luck!