I don't want to be me anymore. I hate everything about myself and I think I deserve to be treated like shit. I have hated myself since childhood. I don't have any friends to even drop a text and check on me. I try a lot to connect with people but I'm unable to do it. I have been bullied for my skin, size, personality, behaviors. even my family hates me. they think I'm full of attitude. I feel very disgusted about myself and feel like checking if anyone would even cry (apart from my parents) and miss me if I die. I don't know the purpose of my life and my presence. I haven't seen my face in the mirror for years. I couldn't. even doing daily chores is like a very big task for me.