I feel like I'm being a spoiled asshole for breaking down about being stressed when I had to do some basic stuff 'cause my mum was sick... I know I shouldn't have but I couldn't help it. my mum is seen as the "cool mum" by my friends and I wanted to vent to my bf... it didn't rly help, I ended up feeling like shit untill my brothere came to check on me. I'm glad he did. I feel like I don't deserve to live but at the same time that I don't deserve to have those thoughts. My life is perceived as amazing by my friends but I feel like it's totally crumbling to the ground.ik my parents are trying and they're doing a really good job... I just want to die though...