I feel like I'm being a burden in my family. I'm rude, not that smart and useless. I always get mad whenever they ask me to do chores. I also don't know myself why would i get mad over nothing. I ended up locking myself in my room most of the time to avoid being rude to anyone. But then they will get mad at me for being useless and not doing anything. I mean it's not their fault to begin with. I know it's my problem for getting mad over nothing and being rude to everyone. I wish I can keep calm and just do the chores quietly. I hate myself for always follow my feelings. It is as if I never thought about other's feelings. I feel like I'm playing the victim. I don't know when everything goes wrong. I hate myself for always hurting other's feeling and never says sorry.