it is a long story. and I had my worst depression episode at my clg. and I am still studying there.they main cause we're my hostel inmates and situations .so I changed my hostel , but still I face the same situations now. but I had decided to face everything .
so I have a fear everything will repeat in a loop
that's great that you have decided to face everything, you don't have to be afraid about the future, the fear that things will go bad will always be their, but no one knows the future, maybe you will not face this in your new hostel.