haa Aisa hota h . shyd wo tumhe loose nai karna chahta ho .

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that's quite messed up ngl

do u like like him tho in first place

you said you think you will never get someone better than him & then again you said he is not what you want.If I am not wrong you are very confused & unsure about this relationship.If you think you deserve better you will never be happy in this relationship.One more thing no one is perfect in this world.We all have flaws & that's absolutely normal.I guess you are looking for someone who is perfect.May be that's the reason this boy is trying his best to be one.See , you have used a very powerful word in this write-up , that is "HATE".If you think you hate someone it's very difficult to keep a healthy relationship.Everything that person will do will irritate you.You will not get anyone better....this thinking of yours is not letting you move ahead.See it's your life , the decision should be yours always.But I do believe you should come out of this relationship for a while.See what happens.Do you get someone of your desire or you just want to go back to him only.Give yourself some time.Don't rush.Atleast you will have no regrets later on.

ik no one is perfect,but I want to explain for him, to take care of his future, I can't even build some good memories with him in the Future cz of this, I don't want break up cz of this reason, he is so patient with me, he cares Abt my anxiety and he never forced me to out with him. I love him but i don't like what he does that's why I'm so confused