Join the club, I too have been depressed but we both can come out of this if we think more positive, I don't know why your depressed I'm depressed because I've been gaslighted for a long time now and everyday I question my own sanity I have a hard time with what's real and what isn't, I can't make decisions for myself, and I'm always afraid. So just be great full for what you have in life and live it, don't worry about what others think because no one has the right to judge you or make you feel bad about yourself.